Mother's Day -- the first without Ben. We figured this had the potential to challenge us, so decided to plan something meaningful in Ben's memory. We put together our first geocache, named it "Ben's Bug Springs Kids' Cache," and filled it with treasures intended to please kids Ben's age. Then we packed up Matthew and both sets of grandparents, and headed up the mountain to hide it. The hiding was followed by a delightful brunch in a cool spot under the pines. From my perspective, it was a perfectly satisfying way to spend my first Mother's Day without the little boy who made "mother" a key feature of my identity.
This was also my first Mother's Day with Matthew, whose wide smiles and shameless flirtations make it impossible to remain mired in grief. What a joy!